L.I.F.E.

this is it;

the fine line in between things starts blurring;

it’s no longer clear;

you’re having doubt;

too many of them;

you don’t know what to do about it;

you wanted to talk to someone;

who?

you wonder;

even that;

you wonder.

everything should’ve been mapped out;

clearly;

by now;

it really should.

don’t assume, ask everything!

she appears to be utterly calm;

the truth of the matter is;

she had so much more to say in opposition;

but her silence all these years;

only allowed for the most basic remonstrance: ‘no’;

to the question.

the things that you’ve taught me;

i’m keeping it all in my head;

in time like this;

i make revision over and over again;

with overlapping visual;

can’t help but remember how it tastes like;

i keep on practising;

how to be myself;

so i will not forget;

the things that you’ve taught me.

you shouldn’t be here;

i’ll hurt you;

i don’t want to make you cry.

you thought i was just kidding;

i meant every word;

e.v.e.r.y.

w.o.r.d.

don’t give me that boring fucking straight face;

think whatever the hell you want to think;

at the end of the day;

im just me;

and i couldn’t care less.

you dont really know how is it feels like;

to care for me;

to be with me;

to bother me;

to annoy the hell out of me;

all you want to do;

is just ignore me;

thats all you can do;

you LOSER!

i feel the need of looking after someone;

i feel the need of someone’s return;

this is not an obligation;

it’s just something that you feel is right to do.

smell of coffee fills the air;

im through with all the mornings;

waking up without you;

children laughing at the next table;

im through with all the thoughts;

not seeing you everyday;

voices came out reluctantly;

im through with all the conversations;

not making sense with all the talking;

im through with you;

im through;

im through;

im through.

there’s really no reason for you to lock yourself up;

i care about you too much;

i just can’t let you go and ignore you now;

just gimme a chance;

how do you know if you haven’t even try?

i have nothing to lose, but only you;

what are you so afraid of?

i thought it can be stopped;

image of you keep re-occuring in my head;

this is just not something that can be forgotten;

all those times.

if i call it off;

all will be over;

and there will be no fun.

im not sure;

i just know.

believing in the fact that;

you’re always with me;

i keep moving on and be strong.

你知道吗？

就只是一个选择；

如此而已；

已经确定了；

就不要再犹豫；

因为你知道；

那是对的。

extremely terrifying;

with the fact that;

actually still might be;

missing him.

a forceful feeling;

never meant to be;

staying calm in denial;

heart agreeing silently.

you have a liability that you’re unaware of.

there will be a time when you actually hate what you do;

you just keep on doing it;

for the sake of nothing;

because you are surer than everyone else;

there is no one who would understand.

do you know how does it feel;

to get used of a format;

a routine of some sort;

then;

there’s a need of changing it;

that’s actually quite hard to do;

like i don’t usually talk to you;

about things;

which i now wish to do so;

it’s just tough;

so so tough.